A breeze so kindly
Softens a winters grip
Please wait with me
We can take in the sun
– Birds of Tokyo, White Leaves
Today, 1 September, marks the beginning of spring!*^ And it’s an absolute pearler.
*In the Southern Hemisphere.
^Some may argue that seasons start at the equinox/solstice. They’re wrong. This is my blog, and I say they start on the 1st.
This turn of the calendar came to my attention when a fellow blogger posted about her plans to write 30,000 words this month. (Good luck, Lauren! 🙂) I’m not going to do that. But I would like to take the opportunity to “spring clean” myself a bit.
For the most part I’m content with my situation, and (when I remember) grateful for what I have. But there are aspects of my life I’m not satisfied with. Honestly, it would be sad if there weren’t – what’s life without something to aspire to?
The ice is getting thinner
The end of winter was rough for me. I’ve been reacquainted with my old enemy, depression (there’s a story here – more on that another day). My staycation didn’t go to plan (spoiler alert!). The words haven’t been flowing here. It feels like things have slowly been falling apart, like a sheet of ice cracking under my feet. While it’s been unseasonably mild here in Wellington, winter had a sting in its tail regardless.
Of course there’s been good mixed in too. I’ve had some wonderful experiences in this time. I’ve met new people, I’ve explored new places, I’ve discovered new music. Meanwhile, I’ve maintained the connections I already had, which is an improvement on last-year me! I’ve generally kept things ticking over – maybe slower than usual, but enough to keep the machine running, ready to fire up again when the time is right.
Most importantly, there’s hope. The days are getting noticeably longer, brighter, and warmer. This automatically brings more energy, more motivation – more sunshine! (Maybe not in the literal sense given Wellington’s odd climate, but still…)
To drag out the classic cliché, spring is a time for renewal. For optimism. For growth. For me right now, it means time to take the lessons from the past winter (there are plenty!) and put them into practice. And to keep trying new things, of course!
I know what to do; well, better than I did before anyway. The trick now is to actually do it.
All this may seem like another empty promise. I already have a dicey track record with those on here. It honestly feels like one as I write this. So rather than a promise, I’d like to frame this as an opportunity.
An opportunity to start over.
To put a sustainable routine in place.
To cut out the things I know aren’t helpful to me.
To make room for the things that are.
And, of course, to share my journey with the world.
The opportunity’s always been there, of course. This is just a convenient time to take it.
So long, winter. Spring is when the sunshine intensifies. Literally!
It’s time to say goodbye
I feel change is coming
When dawn begins to break
Our cold days are over
What does the new season (spring or autumn/fall) mean to you? What spring cleaning do you want to do? What are you optimistic about? Let me know!
Addendum: Playlist for this post
I make a lot of references to songs (and other media) in my posts. The headings in this post are song titles. Rather than link to unofficial videos which may or may not be legal, I’m putting them here as Spotify links. This isn’t intended as a plug for Spotify (though it is my music app of choice); it’s a free, practical, and legal way to share the tunes I love. Enjoy 🙂